Chrissy Teigen posted a farewell on Wednesday and then deactivated her account, writing that it “no longer serves me as positively as it serves me negatively and I think that’s the right time to call something.”

Over the years, the model and cookbook author has been praised for her frank clapbacks and open and honest approach to sharing intimate life moments.

This week she is saying “goodbye” to the platform for good, explaining that she’s not the “strong clap back girl” everyone thinks she is. The mom penned a lengthy note revealing why she was quitting before deactivating her account.

“For over 10 years, you guys have been my world. I honestly owe so much to this world we have created here. I truly consider so many of you my actual friends,” Teigen wrote. “My life goal is to make people happy. The pain I feel when I don’t is too much for me. I’ve always been portrayed as the strong clap back girl but I’m just not…”

“For years I have taken so many small, 2-follower count punches that at this point, I am honestly deeply bruised,” she wrote, adding that she hasn’t learned how to “block out the negativity.”

“I’m just a sensitive s–t, okay!? I don’t wanna be this way! I just am!” she concluded. “But I love you guys and I cherish our time together, I truly do. I also hate you.”

Teigen is no stranger to online trolls and has been a target for them over the years. In recent weeks, she posted several times about the hate she was getting online.

By Wednesday night, Teigen’s account had gone dark.Chrissy Teigen / Twitter

“do u ever feel like everyone hates you? I feel like everyone hates me,” she wrote on March 19. “I’m not looking for you to tell me you don’t, I swear, please don’t!!! it is just overwhelming. i keep seeing ‘how has she not disabled these comments’ across all platforms on anything I say and it sucks.”

That same day, she added she didn’t feel she could do “anything well enough or right. I dunno. Maybe just a rough patch.”

Later, in a post on Medium, she told her critics she was unbothered by them.

“I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it,” she wrote at the time. Continue reading

Chrissy shared this image on her Instagram account, saying: “It’s true! The platform no longer serves me as positively as it does negatively, so with that I bid you adieu. But I want to say that this is absolutely NOT twitter’s fault – I believe they do all they can to combat relentless bullying, any honestly, it’s not the bullying!! You guys have no idea how much they’ve reached out and worked with my team and me personally. It’s not the platform. It’s not the “bullying”. And it’s not the trolls. The trolls I can deal with, although it weighs on you. It’s just me. I have to come to terms with the fact some people aren’t gonna like me. I hate letting people down or upsetting people and I feel like I just did it over and over and over. Someone can’t”

Ultimately, she said she still doesn’t know how to block out the negativity. “I’m just a sensitive okay!? I don’t wanna be this way! I just am! But I love you guys and I cherish our time together, I truly do. I also hate you.” She signed off with “<3” before shutting her account.

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